Aizen-sama's Poetry

[Aizen [NPC]]

~Broken Compass on a Twisted Road~
Lyrics by ~Aiden Kokoro~
Copyright 2009

V1
The Death card is smiling at me
Telling me that it’s too late
I won’t be finding closure
In this pathetic state

I close my eyes and I start to wonder
Bout’ how I never said goodbye
I dreamt of the day that I found out
The day I learned that you died

I stumbled on into darkness
As I searched around for the light
My heart was chained in shackles
And pain thrust me in plight

And all I see in front of me
Is a winding and dim lit path
I’d tell you what’s between the lines
But I’ll let you do the math

Chorus:
I’m standing on a Twisting Road
With a broken compass in hand
I’m searching for the answers
All while hanging by a strand
I can’t see Polaris for the stars
Hell, I can’t see much at all
Someone come to light my way
‘Cause I’m about to fall~~~

V2
I’m treading on a path of ice
And it’s wearin’ kinda thin
I’m lost and wandering all alone
Starving from within

I cannot hear your voice no more
And I’m really getting cold
And all the screams inside of me
Are gettin’ kinda old

I need to hear your symphony
Or at least a whisper or two
I need to find some closure now
Or soon I’ll be flyin’ too

And all I see in front of me
Is a cold and worn-down path
I’d tell ya what’s in store for me
But I’ll let you do the math

Chorus:
I’m standing on a Twisting Road
With a broken compass in hand
I’m searching for the answers
All while hanging by a strand
I can’t see Polaris for the stars
Hell, I can’t see much at all
Someone come to light my way
‘Cause I’m about to fall~~~

[Brief Interlude]

Bridge/V3:
I’m on my way along this twisted path
My compass spinning in my head
My world is on the verge of Hell
And It’s left me here for dead

I cannot see in front of me
My heart is almost stilled
This pain of loss is too damn much
And this sorrow has me killed

And I’m standin’ on the precipice
Hangin’ off the edge
My life is at its ending now
As it kicks me off the ledge

And all I see in front of me
Is the road right down to Hell
My world has all but let me die
But my story, they will tell

Chorus:
I’m standing on a Twisting Road
With a broken compass in hand
I’m searching for the answers
All while hanging by a strand
I can’t see Polaris for the stars
Hell, can’t see much at all
Someone come to light my way
‘Cause I’m about to fall~~~

‘Cause I’m about to fall~~~~

‘Cause I’m about……

To fall.

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~Devil's Lullaby~
Sanctus Espiritus
Redeem us from our solemn hour
An hour of hate
Of Lies
Of Treachery
Save the damned
The poor
The twisted
The cruel
The left behind
Is this what we deserve when we break free?
The chains that give such horrible agony
The seven marks we carve into our flesh
Wrath
Pride
Gluttony
Sloth
Greed
Envy
Lust...
Who will save us?
Are we savable?
Won't the savior shine?
Or will he crawl from the abyss as we do?
Will he be bathed in glory?
Or shrouded in darkness until the time nears?

Stare me in the eye now
In this, our solemn hour
Feel my joy
My pain
My sorrow
My hate
My rage
My agony
My love
Let me be your solace
A poison you take for eternal sleep
Let me silence your cries of agony
Your Profound moans and weeps
Let the darkness into your heart
Find the rest in the silence
God will come for you when he is ready
But until then Christ will guide you through the night
And I, Lucifer, through Hell
The flames will not burn you
You, who would enter His gates one day
But woe be unto you whom I judge to be foul
Abandon all hope should you enter here
And incur my wrath

My love, my love
Let the Devil's trill be your lullaby
Let me sing you to sleep
With the sounds of the sins
And sacrifices I made in your name
Will they all be justified?
Succumb to me, my beautiful angel
Turn your wings black
Don the cloak of the night
Come into my arms
Come and sleep with me
In a bed of sin and solace
For tomorrow I die
And you are reborn pure
Rising to Heaven on guilded wings of holiness
While I sink under the mire of what I have done
To prove to you
That, above all else, the Devil has a heart
And it bled for you, died for you, sinned and sacrificed everything
For you
But rest tonight
Sleep here in my arms
As I sing to you the sinfully sweet melody
The Devil's lullaby
~ Joker ~

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~Scream Board~
I find it funny
How ironic I've become
I've come to realize the profound
When I look, no one's around
It's all come full circle
I really amaze myself
Raising all these walls
And then blowing them to Hell
Have I lied to me?
What have I tried to see?
Something I can't be?
Or something that I am?
Did someone lie to me?
Is the pied piper steering me?
Or am I the one
Who is holding the strings
It's funny
What I really see
When I look in that broken but clear mirror
The baron of hypocracy
The god of triviality
A fool shipwrecked on the tossing sea
Or is the sea me? I can't remember
Of things I can't enjoy
Or words I can't employ
Because really, who'd want to work for me?
Have I found you?
Or have you hidden me?
You can try to save what I never was
Or try to condemn what I've become
Try to pick up the pieces
Or Sweep them under the rug
I've dug my pit
I've sealed my grave
One that can not hold
The Devil's one slave
Himself
Maybe you'll mistreat me
Maybe even beat me
You can sure misuse me
But please don't misunderstand
Where I stood in the sinking sand
Help me save me from myself
Words you'll never hear me say
Not without help
Broken
Abused and
Lying cold on the floor
I don't want this anymore
Save me from myself
The puppet master
Who holds his own strings
It's not like it will kill you
It may even thrill you
But you'll never hear from me
The words you should really see
Think of me now
As I take my last bow
And reflect upon what heard
And read my double-edged sword
My Screaming Board
~ Joker ~

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~Lost.......~

Stumbling, falling from my past
My soul's ship has broke its mast
My sails are torn and my hull is shattered
Along the shore the pieces are scattered
I've failed my charter and lost my way
And upon the rocks, I cry today
My ship has wrecked and I am stranded
Unsure to where exactly I landed
From my home, I'm way too far
For I have lost my northern star
She flies from me into the sky
Without her here my heart might die
I want her back, no matter the cost
For without her, I'm forever lost.......

~-------Joker~

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~Never-ending Pain~

Fading, falling, bleeding from you
Oh so soon, my death will ensue
You shattered my heart and threw it to the wind
Scattering my hope, and so life will end
The cold, harsh steel against my skin
Shows that love, I never did win
I feel betrayed and broken inside
Sensing that my heart truly has died
I beat myself up, and say it was me
That made you to turn, that made you to flee
A church bell tolls the soft call of demise
Bringing sharp tears to burn in my eyes
Crying, bleeding, living in Hell
Just the thought of you now make my emotions to swell
Fallen from grace, drowning in mire
My soul has lost its life-giving fire
Try as I might to erase these thoughts
They Plague my mind as my spirit rots
The knife rips my wrist and my hot blood pours out
I feel the prick on my skin but I do not shout
I press the blade to my throat and see red
Soon, I feel, I shall finally be dead
The blade is not that which makes my heartbeat to wain
It was love gone so dark, and its never-ending pain.......

~-----Joker~

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~ANGEL OF DARKNESS~

A beat of wings, a flash of light
The angel draws his sword tonight
The creature sings his song of plight
His sentence brings him to the fight
He slays his brethren guild
The demons of foul Hell
His alter of death shall build
To the midnight toll of the bell
When darkness falls, his soul shall soar
An omen of ultimate fate
'Gainst all evil, he makes his war
At his sight, all escape is too late
The moon casts its shadow
Upon his pale face
His target cowers below
Its soul, he'll erase
The requiem sounds the epitaph
Sharp chords and trills of the end
His blade, it shows his searing wrath
Hate and fury shall call him friend
And as he sings his song of night
His soul begins to fade
He bathes within the blood of the fight
As the dawn reveals its shade.........

~-------Joker~

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~The Elusive Love~

The Elusive Love, what is it?
The feeling spoken in lore
A fading dream, a passing mem'ry
Or could it be something more?
A delicate tulip which blooms in Spring
The time which brings hope to one's eyes
Or a fragile rose which snaps in Winter
The time which brings about hope's demise
Could it be prelude to greater things near
Of yon jubilous times ahead
Or could be harbinger of darker things soon
Of such tremulous trials to dread
A double-edged knife, bringing death or life
To silence or lift up in song
An instrument played, with fast trills or delayed
to rejoice or lament life gone
The Elusive Love, why can't I find it?
It hides in shadow and mire
Longevity lasting or time flown by swift
it stifles or egnites one's fire
Is it a spark of inspiration
Passion of the heart
Yet is it more of consternation
Ceasing before it can start
This wily emotion, birthing romance or hate
An equalizer of humankind
All of us searching, so diligent or sedate
Yet love, some of us, will never find........

~-------Joker~

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~Cherry Blossoms~

Rose snowflakes, floating 'cross the wind.....
Pale remnants of a war torn world.....
Forlorn petals of sorrow, giving solace.....
Yet dying for lack there of.....
Cherry Blossoms, the tears of the Earth.....
Blooming for love, falling for despair.....
The death veil of the warrior.....
A blanket of pink 'gainst his armor of black.....
A beautiful sight it is to behold.....
Hiding the horror that was to unfold.....
A katana drawn, a flash of light.....
Two souls enlock in combat tonight.....
The sakura, the cherry tree.....
A solemn witness, to their fight, would be.....
Their geisha's breaths are bated and shallowed.....
Hoping the other's lover is hollowed.....
The blossoms, they fall like the tears of hate.....
It started as a duel, then a war in the strait.....
Flaming arrows in the air, the shooting stars of demise.....
Cutting down their targets, bringing sorrow to one's eyes.....
And when the end has finally come, when it is all done.....
The water has turned to wine colored, and no one's really won.....
Only the sakura is left standing, a testament to the dead.....
Once its petals were so white, and now their drowned in red......

~-------Joker~

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~CRUEL ROMANCE~

Love, a quizzical scheme
Makes one's heart lift in a dream
Magical, wonderful, one's words might derive
Ones so infidelic, they know not what love deprives
Cruel Romance, like a thorn
Alliances once made now are torn
Those in love, their souls be light
Yet those loveless, are souls in plight
Down they plunge, down below
Nothing can stop the vacuum of woe
Yet insult to injury, love comes still
And now, these poor souls, it shall further kill
The immortals toy with such trivial things
Agonizing over the stress it brings
The outlet they find is smiting the forlorn
And thus the torturous love is born
The chains of romance, they grow so tight
The horrific pain I cannot fight
Love is fickle, love is mean
Yet no human heart can wean
A fortnight ago, I was alright
But now I lust for death tonight
This emotion I feel, full of envy and woe
My grave, love has dug; a pit of sorrow
This is the fate of the ones it excluded
Wishing to have a heart love has polluted
Out of this torture, love has made hate
in the hearts of the fallen, without a mate
Hate destroys more than love ever killed
Yet love must be silenced before hate is stilled
Try as I might to sit out this ill dance
I too am drawn in to this Cruel Romance........

~-------Joker~

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~Pain~

I draw my blade my venting tool of steel
Its cold tongue feels like ice against my warm wrist
I press it down and feel it bite
As my skin gives way
Taking bated breath, I grit my teeth
My eyes glaze over
And my hand draws the knife down its course
The pins on my scalp appear as I feel the slow prickle
And I make the cut....
It's not enough to die but deep enough to feel
Deep enough to scream inside
To watch my troubles flow out to greet me
Like little ships in the red sea...
I take my brush, swirl it in my medium
And slap it on the wall
Scenes of pain, sorrow, and hate come to life
As my masterpiece falls into its proper place
Like my tears kiss the floor
I don't want this anymore....
My subconcious takes hold
I feel so numb, so detached
As I initial my portrait of grief
Putting my brush down, I at last feel the sting
I crumple, I fall, sliding down my wall
And I know it's in charge
I'm a tool of my emotions
A slave to this pain
A toy of the darkness
A puppet on a string....

~-------Joker~

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~LOVE LOST~

Rain, pounding upon my windowsill
It is the tears of heaven that I feel
Falling down, quenching the earth
Taking my death to give rebirth
An empty feeling inside my chest
To where her head had once been rest
A pitiful sight I have become
The last stage of mourning has now begun
Just like the scene in her last act
My final will on the wall be tacked
I loved her so, the Actress Queen
Addiction fast, my heart can't wean
What a pair we were on stage
When we read our lines from page to page
Inseperable our lives became
No man nor beast, our love, could maim
Then, one night, her final scene
Became the end of my Actress Queen
A simple slip of a taut life rope
Transformed into Satan's killing grope
Suspended in the air of nill
Though beautiful, my angel was still
We buried her, and through my plight
I vowed I'd be with her tonight
So here is my forlorn last scene
I'll be with you soon, my Actress Queen
Goodbye to you, Oh Life, my friend
For now my performance has come to its end.......

~----Joker~

ALL ABOVE WORKS ARE COPYRIGHTED TO MARK "JOKER" BROWN.